LH surge was on SUNDAY! Which means I had the IUI today. This time, Eric came with me. He gave his sample there this time to make sure it was "fresh." Poor guy haha. I took chlomid on the appropriate cycle days and now we hope that the little guy/girl is fertilized and making her journey to my uterus!! Trying not to get m hopes up, but I'm reallllly hoping it took. Please, please, please!

Trying to conceive has been a really rough road. Its been about a year and a half since my chemical pregnancy. Though we didn't actively try the entire time, its still really rough. I feel terrible because the friend that got pregnant at the same time that I had the chemical pregnancy and it was definitely hard to watch her experience it all when I wanted it so badly. I recently got to finally go met her baby. It was so great...and hard at the same time. I've shared my fair share of tears over the past few months-and even more over the past few days. I wish it would happen, I really do. This past year has been a roller coaster. I had a terrible job, had to do a lot of adjusting to Eric travelling often and being more on my own, and dealing with stress. Many changes, feelings, and emotions. I have a good feeling about 2012 though!! Theres already been some major changes! I quit my job, relieved a ton of stress, have a good plan with the doctor, am in a good place, and am convinced my friends baby will bring us good luck! I even bought Eric a baby outfit for Christmas! No more feeling sad...this year is all about new beginnings and starting over and hopefully starting our family!!

IUI #1 was unsuccessful, however, like I said, I felt like it would be. Hopefully this month works out! I just started a fresh cycle, started chlomid, and if I am doing the math correctly, I should ovulate here soon-and NOT on a Friday. Yay! 

I have heard horror stories about chlomid and the side effects. Luckily I seem to be dealing  just fine! The weirdest reaction I have had was a numb tongue after i took it once after not drinking any water! So, so far so good!

Well, we did it! IUI #1 is complete. Eric rendered his, um, sample, at home and I brought it to the doctor who then gave it a try. However, I feel like it might be too late. I got my LH surge on Friday and the IUI needs to be completed within 24 hours. But we will give it a try and see! Lets hope this works!!

So excited! After I spoke with the doctor we decided not only to try chlomid but to try chlomid plus an IUI-an intrauterine insemination. Chlomid can be used to help with ovulation, but it can also work to help with unexplained infertility. The IUI will allow the dr. to insert the semen directly into my cervix - right next to the fallopian tubes - after I detect an LH surge. The semen analyss came back fine but was lightly low on motility (their ability to swim i think). So hopefully that will work!!

This cycle was too late for chlomid, so we will try it next cycle, but this cycle we ill try the IUI alone. REALLLY crossing my fingers!

Well, its been a long time since i posted. This past year has been pretty eventful. For awhile, we went back to not trying. Decided to wait a bit longer. Well, we decided to try again and I further spoke to the doctor since Its been over a year with no luck. We had Eric tested and also had a test on me performed called an HSG or Hysterosalpingography. It is basically a test where they inject dye into you and and watch it spread through your cervix and Fallopian tubes to see if there are any blockages. It's suppose to lead to great success afterwards since it essentially "cleans you out." Well, that was two cycles ago. And still nothing. I'm having normal cycles, ovulating each time......Ugh!!! This is so frustrating! As of right now I have "unexplained infertility." The HSG test came back normal, thank goodness because I really do not want to do that again! It hurt soooo badly! The uterus basically contracts when it's done. It hurt so much! Maybe I should rethink this baby thing...kidding!

Contacted the doctor today regarding next steps....at another appointment we discussed chlomid. He says he thinks it is appropriate to try now. I go in to see him soon! Fingers crossed!

I contacted the doctor to speak to him regarding how long we should wait before consulting him while trying to conceive. I went in and spoke to him and e is confident things will happen. Perhaps its my body still adjusting. But since I got a positive test at some point he thinks I should keep trying. He did order bloodwork, which again showed low progesterone but he is not concerned. I guess we just keep trying and wait...frustrating!

A line is a line they say....until it disappears. Boo!

So, Eric and I went on a cruise to celebrate our first anniversary and it was fabulous! Except for the fact that my period came in the middle of the trip, hence confirming what I feared-I wasn't pregnant afterall. 

According to the doctor I may have had what is known as a chemical pregnancy. I knew something just wasn't right. I tested quite a few times and instead of growing darker, the line just grew fainter. Then I took a digital test and it said negative. I chalked it up to being too early though. However, on vacation I had one of the worst periods ever. Came home to a note from the doctor with my first appt and ultrasound scheduled dates. Called them, explained and they had me come in for an HCG test. Confirmed, not pregnant (-2 Quant) and progesterone very low which probably contributed to the loss if there was one. Doctor wasn't concerned about the progesterone levels though since they did raise after I had my surge on my ovulation test. In fact they were 19.1 on a scale of 1.5-20. So at least that is all working out right!

Back to trying we go!

In other news, one of my closest friends also got a positive test -very faint line too...but hers is sticking! So excited for her!!

Look CLOSELY!! Super faint, but it's there!!

It's time.

Time for Eric and I to add to our little family of him, me, Hana, Leela, Oreo, and Dizzy. Oh and Slytherin too.

I went to the doctor last week and he's fabulous. I really love my doctor. He knows I want to try and time the baby with the end of the school year so he suggested a ovulation predictor kit. Especially because my body has been less than cooperative. I started tracking in the fall and had consistent 30 day cycles which have recently moved to 40ish days.

So I started the ovulation tests on Monday. It was only day 10 so I wasnt expecting anything. In fact the doctor said I probably wouldnt see anything until day 20. He said i might even want to wait until day  20 to start them so I ddn't drive myself crazy. I told him I didn't mind right now. Which is good because on Saturday I got a test indicating an LH surge! whoo hooo!

I was very skeptical as #1 it was early, and #2 I had been detecting LH all week, just not strong. The test line has to be darker than the control. I started freaking out on Saturday and was very excited! Conincidentally this was also Eric's 30th birthday! Hopefully we will have a fantastic birthday gift for him!

The timing of this would be perfect, however, I'm trying VERY hard not to get my hopes up! Though we havent been "trying" in the past we also havent been not trying. But I've been excited and let down before. I don't want it to happen again. However, it's going to be a very long 2 weeks!

I felt some cramping later in the day on Sunday and I'm hoping the test wasn't a fluke and everything is going as planned. I've had some aching too, so fingeres are crossed.

Since I'm a dork I took a picture of the test. It's definitely positve for LH! Look at that dark test line! haha. I go to the doctor next week for bloodwork to be sure I ovulated. Whoo hoo!